smoke.

and well..
today i've finally done it.
i've smoked my first cigarrette.
And it was scary..
but at least i didn't get suffocated by the smoke.
Last night was a weird night.
it was a year ago,
when i stopped sleeping by you.
And was almost a year ago,
when dream didn't came to me.
and now, i've smoked.
and i liked.
But i can't have nothing
for the self dissapointment.


I decided that some thing on you,
are the ones i like .
But, haha him will never be mine.
So again, i have to move on.
And walk away from this mess in front my path.
And i'm thinking in get some experiences.
But surely, it just would make me more tired.
and sick of breathe.
And i can't drown myself on nicotine.
i can't drown myself on self pity.
and i can't asphyxiated myself with thoughts.
I'm going on my way.
but i don't believe i would last much.
i don't know what i can do.
Last night a lot of thougs came out.
and make me confuse.
But well, at least i still can walk.