weirdness on the back of the page.

when you start to get away,
of something that you really "love",
but it hurt you too much, to keep the way,
that one for a weird reason starts to walk near to you,
and that makes some kind of confusion
in your heart, your mind, and finally... your way.

and what could you do from now?
if the one that most hurts you
if one of the most important persons in your daily time,
had made you cry 'till you bleed.
had told you things that razor your heart,
your dreams, and everything you are.

why is this?, why it stills here killing you,
some days and other ones it's caring with you.
what's the purpose of this weird game that you play?
when nothing has a reason, what you do?
when i decide walk away, you come and make me stay.

13 minutes - ls

It’s funny when things go wrong
I get tired of waking
For all the things I've loved before
I'm tired of breaking
Good things are far ahead
but my patience is shaking
Only 13 minutes left,
but is it worth waiting..

Would you care for me
cause I'm tired
Tired of all this life
Would you care for me
cause I feel like..
I've been cut inside

It's blatant to feel so wrong
to get hurt by the taking
Everything that I've said before
I hesitate saying
I'm falling fast ahead, yeah
the pace that I'm making
Only 13 minutes left
but it's not worth waiting..

Would you care for me
cause I'm tired
Tired of all this life
Would you care for me
cause I feel like..
I've been cut inside

what the fuck i'm doing with my life?
WHAT IS THIS FUCKING SHIT?
:S will i never be happy with my mther fcking body?
cannot i have balance on my mind?
what the fuck is going on?
._. i wanna leave EVERY THING
i wanna go away of every one
don't matter nothing
i just want to live alone
don't have to eat
and don't have to be a fat
i hate me
i hate everything
and i just
._. hate this i want to be alone in somewhere and
have a good metabolism
make exercise
i start today with -avena-
hope it works
i'm weight 67 ._.
i need i really need lose 4 kgs or 3
don't mind it x.x
i need it
._. to feel a little better with me
i don't know what i'm doing with my life x.x
i'm tired of this life._.

could i
don't need be in love to
be happy?
xd it's so funny
now i think more in what i need to do
that in him
and i don't know if it's good
but this makes me realize
that i really don't need much to survive and be happy :3
at least.. not now..
don't know 'bout tomorrow ;D
feeling good right now :B

y no sé
creo que..
puede ser amor pero..
uno limitado, sabes?
hunny, i love you
i really do..
but i won't love you for all my life.
cause i know in the end.. you aren't all i want for me
but ._. you said i'm that for you..
and i know i will hurt you at the end..
am i lying?
am i a lie?
a lie beneath the love.
i will make you happy
but maybe i will meake you hurt too..
and that's the worst thing i can imagine..
i just hope that you find something to leave me first
or i finally fall totally in love..
cause today, it's a day of doubts.
and every time i think it..
i lie wondering the same damn thing.
i don't love you.. or at least..
i love you, but not completely.

i'm not asking for much..

es tan sorprendente
como las personas cambian
desde aquí.. el tiempo parece no haber pasado
sin embargo, ha pasado.. y MUCHO, muy rapido
tan rapido, que aún sigo recordando cada momento..
o quizas solo una gran mayoria de ellos..
y es idóneo.
sería idoneo..
correción: Fué idóneo.
E irónico, tan irónico,
que recuerdos aun me quedan
no por borrar, ni por olvidar..
pero si por dejar de recordar :]
y no sé..
quizás es la costumbre de mirar hacia atrás--
para poder intentar avanzar.
y sé, que yo no duraré mucho así..
y por consecuente te hare danio..
pero es que no puedo evitarlo..
love is not made for me.

and maybe, i wasn't made for love
i wasn't made for be with some one else.
i just wait for you to end with me
'cause i know, that someday will pass.
and it's okay
i know that people comes and go.
and maybe.. i just really want to be alone..

i don't know if i can deal with this
'cause, when you're not here
i feel exactly the same loneliness, that always i've felt.
and you say you won't leave me..
and that's a truly lie.
'Cause everyone leaves us.
everyone dies alone.

middle of night , sorrow behind

at the middle of the night
you realize how alive you are.
you find that somethings are bad
and others ones are right.

other many things are absolutely gray
but at the end.. nobody will care.
cause this life , how we've known
will change for good, or maybe for bad.

and someones said: aren´t the explication what makes us still walking.
are our desires of keep the road what make that.

and every little breathe we take, is insignificant
if we see the air that exist.
and if we try to see the purpose of this life
is something.. useless
cause.. we will never know it at least.. not in this life.

¿?

may be, i feel emptiness¿?

in co he ren cias xd

and i will never understand
the way of this life is
cause the seasons surrounding me
are all the weirdest ones.

first i was the one you cared the most
and last, i am the one you forgot
now i don't remind the times , that bads..
because the scars aren't just erased at all
but if you stop to think in every little thing of me
you will see that the pain still here
will you try erase my pain?
will you care for all the tears that you invoke?


i know , i know
you are one liar more
i don't need a better reason to keep the silence now
now i know how the real things should be
and you won't, you won't be here with me.