ideas.

"and the question is if you want
not if you can.

and the days are passing by
with the time i leave behind

and all the questions without answers
will die

and the question ask if you want
not if you can.

The answer will be your choice
to stay or leave
this world and the life
as you've known

As the days passed by
my memories fades in the air

your eyes surrounded
by the questions you can't answer

and if the questions doesn't have answers
what will you do now."

hablar para que
soñar para que
creer, para que?
de todas formas moriré.

"Some things arise
And certain people devise
While others resign themselves
To design

But whatever the meaning to them
It doesn't mean anything to us
We know things happen for no reason
But obey the same calculus
That says one plus one minus one equals one
It was over just as soon as it had begun

Numbers disappear
Just as soon as they were here
And some of them remain
And some are never the same

But whatever the meaning for them
It doesn't mean anything to us
They count with their fingers
But we have our own abacus
That says one plus one minus one equals one
It was over just as soon as it had begun" 

Si, puedo aceptar que te extraño.
Pero no deseo ese sentimiento.
No deseo el arrepentimiento, o la duda.
Aunque tengo miedo, y me canso de olvidar e ignorar.
O tan solo pretender hacerlo...
mi mente juega conmigo, como si fuese 
un juego de guerra en primera persona.
Donde todos pueden y tienen que morír.
Menos yo.
Me gustaría creer que si apareces todo será mejor,
pero creerlo, no significa que sea realidad..
desear, nunca me ha servido de nada.
Prefiero tragarme las gotas oculares,
y enjuagarme los ojos con jabon.
Quizás el ardor calme el vacio,
por un minuto.. o solo dos.

"I don't need these things if I'll lose them again
This house looks like a bankrupt museum
But I'm not like you
I don't want to go zen
This is what happens when the newness ends
And in my defense you were the one
But there's no difference because I'm not done
I'm gonna clean my room and get me a friend
This is what happens when the newness ends

And you can't see that I won't be that way for you
again

We watched the rust get covered in frost
When you lose your lust you're never so lost
When the day's as long as this is wrong
There are things still here but everything's gone
Is this what happens when you have a friend
This is what happens when the newness ends

And you can't see that you won't be that way for me
again"

Newness end - The new year.

maybe it's sad, but i'm not crying or feeling bad anymore.
i don't care more.

"There are certain times I wish for release
At least just some sleep
It just shouldn't take so long
I wish I could turn off and on

It's so dark I can't even see
How all the colors turn to greys
It's so dark I don't know if I believe
I'm here anyway

If there's nothing to be
But as distracted as you can be
Then I can't lose myself
In so much empty space

I know more than I want to
And I don't need any more
What can I give in exchange
For a simple life

Never know a time beyond today

I don't mean it like it sounds
If it sounds like I want it easy
I mean simple in my head
Not simple for my hands

But there's nothing to be
But as distracted as you can be

I never thought I would say what I'm saying now
I never thought I would think what I'm thinking now"
simple life - The new year

ya está...
te estoy borrando.. vez?
Lo siento. vez?
Que bueno que no me dejé caer.
Estoy casi segura, de que no me equivoque.
So..
whatever, i don't care.
i don't have to care.

Me voy a largar de aquí, no hoy, no mañana,
pero lo haré, y nadie sabrá de mi, NADIE!
viviré sola, no dependere de nadie, nadie sabra de mi, NADIE!
puedo verlo venir, puedo probar el sabor de la soledad.
y es lo que más quiero ahora mismo.
Irme, mandar todo a la mierda,
y crearme un nuevo camino, que se desvie de toda esta mierda.
Al comienzo del día, me siento bien, aunque todo me vale mierda.
Al final, me siento pateticamente, y aun todo me vale mierda.
yay*

distorted pictures is all you deliver.

"On the verge of ruin
You'll see it all clear
How steep the fall is
How long the way back is
On the verge of success
It's all white and fluffy
Horizons are blurred
By the time you reach your goal
Tongues will be twisted
To the point where you'll lose track of your soul
Distorted pictures is all you deliver"



José Gonzalez - All you deliver.

Don't let the darkness eat you up.

"I see problems down the line,
I know they're not mine.
I see darkness down the line,
I know it's not fine.
But don't wash the dirt off of your hands.
You're doing the same mistake twice.
Making the same mistake twice.
Come on over,
don't be so caught up.
It's all about colonizing.
I see problems down the line.
I know they're not mine.
Don't let the darkness eat you up."

José Gonzalez - Down the line.