.

and only i know
how deep is the hole that
i have created around myself.
and the calm don't last.
the calm is so fucking good
that it don't last more than a half hour.
and now i just feel anger
and after.. i don't feel anything
i just feel myself numb
and all around me it's just fog.
the fog that clouds my road.
and i feel always a little more empty
than before.
i just want a cigarrette..
just it calms my emptyness...
And i don't wanna get a vice
but slowly it catchs me.